To: Monte-Cristo@hunter-net.org
From: Ebony_Creole_Princess@hotmail.com
Hi hun, remember me, it’s me Krista the hot booty, ya saved from those crappy bums, two years ago, New Orleans, French Quarter, near Le Chat Noir…
Here’s a question for ya my dear count, How do ya know if ya’re going crazy or not? There’s those questionnaries for alcoholism and drug dependency, but what going full bore, batshit, out of touch with reality, NUTS???
By definition, a crazy mind isn’t working right. But the mind is the only instrument I’ve got for examing my own mind. It’s like a one handed mam trying to bandage a cut on his palm. My mind keeps tripping over itself.
SANE
1.- I still seem able to think in a logical, orderly fashion.
2.- I didn’t any suddenly recent shock that might have driven me over the edge (other than the shock of seeing hallucinations, I guess- But that’s kind of a chicken and egg question, isn’t it hun?)
3.- I had a good childhood without traumas or molestation or anything. (And thanks to ya I’m still virgin).
4.- No drugs, no booze, just the prescription stuff for my heart…( but nothing mind altering and nothing illegal)
5.- I just had a checked up, and for the usual, nothing seemed weird to the Doc…
INSANE
1.- I heard voices in my head that weren’t my own… (that’s schizophrenia to me babe…)
2.- I saw Jenny my cousin, but I know she’s been dead for 8 moths… (that sounds like a hallucination or delusions or something…)
3.- I saw Bill my brother in law, my sister’s husband, looking like a corpse…(that sounds like a hallucination too…)
Please babe, I know, that this is the way it starts? One day every is ticking a long normal and the next day ya’ re seeing ghosts & goblins popping out of your gumbo…
But things were going well, I’m the best of my class on med school at Notre Damme, why would I go crazy?
Let’s see. I guess there are 3 possibilities.
1.- I’m off my nut, having delusions. (Shit babe, even that stuff of the good daugther and brilliant med student could be a delusion! I could be locked up in a madhouse somewhere, I guess. Still, everything seems real, except for Jenny and Bill…)
2.- My reasoning mind is Ok. but for some reason I’m perceiving things that aren’t real (its like some one have changed my my heart pills, for LSD… but, if i was tripping wouldn’t everything get weird, but all looked so normal, hard edged and ok, except for Ben and Jenny, I just don’t know, actually I only trust ya, Henry…
3.- The really scary possibility: I’m sane and what I saw was real…
please baby contact me soon I need ya and your advice…
Truly yours:
Krista Faux